ByteManx

By the way, if anybody cares, it's my birthday today. I say "if anybody cares," because I don't.

Another year older, wiser, and still no closer to happiness. I suppose I should take joy in my fiance, and my 2 darling girls, and I do. But for the last half-decade, this day has depressed me. I'm not young anymore, as my back reminds me every day. My best days are behind me now. And besides good-looking kids, what do I have to show for it?

Not much.

Seriously, the score from "The Shawshank Redemption" keeps playing over and over in my head every birthday for the last long while. And while that movie is a testament to the ultimate strength of the human spirit, I don't know how much spirit I have left in me anymore. I believe that YEARS of pure mental discipline in controlling my Bipolar Disorder have finally failed. My mind races, my mood darkens, and while suicide is DEFINITELY off the table, some form of giving up seems inevitable if I don't do something. Trouble is, I HATE taking pills, and even put off asprin for that exact reason.

Maybe I'm just venting. But there's no birthday cake in my house right now, and I am glad. Another reminder of another year wasted in the pathetic dream of success seems so pointless to me. I bet no one even follows this journal anymore, either. In that case, I'm just venting my frustrations. If someone IS reading this, however... why??? Just... WHY???

Bah, it's just another birthday, and there WILL be more. I'm sure this funk will lift once Spring training games start, and all will be sunshine and farts again. In the meantime, I'll simply await my (late) birthday gift of Arkham City: Armored Edition.

Until next time (whenever THAT is), this is ByteManNeo on Miiverse, saying "Good night, and good luck."

If you have one, and feel like it, I invite you to join me on my Wii U friends list. Look for ByteManNeo.

Carry on.

So I have decided to start making puzzles. Not a lot, but some. I was inspired by both The Riddler and Marble Hornets. Let's see if you like!

So I have been doing some thinking, and have decided to start collecting British currency. Obviously, I'll have to pay out the arse for the folding notes, but I hope the coinage is easier to come by. So I guess there's just one question you gotta ask yourself... You got a quid?


BTW, first one to call me a chav dies by my hand. Every person thereafter gets bludgeoned to death with the rotting corpse of the person who said it before them. K? Ta!

So after a TON of time elapsed, I decided to add a few of my new memes, and update my page, including a new avatar! Thanks to Xterra of Sprites-Inc. for the base sprite, a custom Mega Man ZX Model I recolored to match the new comic I am doing. (Well, 1 of 2, but that one is a limited release.) I also changed from "satirical asshat" to "Blue Lantern for Sector 2814." This coincides with a recent attitude change I have undergone. I have once again become more hopeful, and will be adding "All will be well..." to a lot of replies, posts, and Journal entries, aping my favorite comic book character, Saint Walker.

Just looking to improve myself, and have fun doing it. I'll probably still rant, go all zen-ish, and even rage, but I wanna be more...positive.

Remember, all will be well...